Colours

Before you came into my life,

Everything was black and white.

The sky was a dreary grey,

And everything seemed damp and cold.

The rain pierced through me down to my core,

As I faced it with my eyes wide open.

You came in like a rainbow,

So high up on the horizon.

Inconspicuous to the oblivious,

And enchanting to the observant.

It took me sometime,

To feel the magic of your presence.

But once I did,

Nothing was ever the same again.

Now there were vibrant colours,

Dancing around wherever I looked.

Seeing them filled me with elation,

And their brightness led to a revelation.

As they shed light on a treasure, hidden.

The treasure of feelings buried deep within.

Feelings that I had never imagined,

I was even capable of harboring.

Now I see you in my dreams.

There too being my companion.

Smiling, strolling by the stream,

Or climbing a hefty mountain.

The vivid dreams are so cheerful.

Just like the good, old days.

I extend my arm to reach you in them.

As I wake up and realize you aren't there.

A grin lights up my countenance.

Because the colours are as bright as ever.

I clench my fist and hold it close to my heart,

And send flying a silent prayer.

I patiently wait for the time to come,

When I will be able to see you again.

All Better

The sparkling night sky, studded with a million stars.

The soothing light washing away my world's drab twilight.

No wonder everything looks so rejuvenating and bright.

The rainfall melted away the thick crust of dust.

All the way from my eyes to the core of my heart.

Clogs all gone, the scarlet flows freely once again.

Doesn't feel like it's going to explode anymore.

The aching seems to have faded away as well.

A stretch of pink adorns my countenance,

that glows with a tint of rosy, red blush.

Happiness emanating from beneath my fingernails,

I bend down on my knees, tears dangling on my chin.

With eyes shining brighter than the moonlight,

My forehead touches the gentle, soggy ground.

Ah, which smells like the intoxicating petrichor.

I wish this euphoria could be bottled up.

I would fill up a trillion and sail the seven seas.

Handing them out to everyone, spread the blessing.

What a wonderful xanadu the world would be then.

Void of all agony, there would be no more darkness. 

Lost Spark

I'm sitting here, all alone.

In the corner of a black room.

And the walls are all caving in.

Lost in the emptiness,

With no way out.

No hand to hold,

No shoulder to cry on.

This hurricane in my mind,

Refuses to let me breath.

Or move a single inch.

My body is paralyzed.

Fear is taking over.

I need someone to talk to,

But no one is there.

All I see is a pitch blank.

The darkness is blinding.

The floor beneath my feet is melting.

Like I'm drowning in quick sand.

I try to scream at the top of my lungs,

But nothing comes out.

Not even a squeak.

At one point I stop struggling.

Purse my chapped lips,

And close the swollen eyes.

The quagmire couldn't kill me.

Once I realized that and took a deep breath,

The darkness was still there.

So I bent down, holding my breath.

And took a dip in the mud.

Falling prostrate I found what I needed.

Everything anyone could ever need.

What I found was You.

Your Hand, Your Shoulder,

Your Love, Your Support.

Your Solutions, and what not?

I felt a spark emerge from within me.

That rose and rose and reached the sky.

Once I lifted my face I saw it was there.

Pitch black but more beautiful than ever.

So calm and soothing, enveloping me entirely.

But the spark kept growing brighter.

And the night didn't seem to mind.

It kept smiling, stretching its limbs.

And yawned softly, closing its eyes.

The sun was rising and the spark was glowing,

As the magic kept growing stronger.

Your magic, the ever unparalleled.

Now light danced all around me, taking my hand.

And I followed joyfully singing Your songs.

Grinning, laughing, unable to count Your blessings.

Being grateful to You for everything.

As the glass walls of loneliness lay shattered.

And the shackles of pain left undone.

Heartsease

Tripping the light fantastic

In the serene daisy field

I feel an orb of light

Glowing with all it's might

In the depths of my heart

Just like the one in the sky

It spreads life all around

My soul feeds on its power

And keeps growing stronger

Without a care in the world

I dance in the meadows

Only blood, sweat and tears

No fret nor fear

The plan is perfect

So is the Planner

I can pull through, no matter what

Cos the light inside me is enough

To chase away all the darkness

The Night Prayer

Lying on the vast grass-covered ground 

Cool wind blowing flower scent all around

As the zephyr caresses my countenance,

A smile lights it up as bright as the sun.

Serenity takes over my soul.

Thinking of You I close my eyes.

The absence of all noise, makes me feel

Like on this earth only I am alive

And in the heaven only You exist

Oh, how euphoric it is!

I open my eyes and raise my arm

Towards You, I stretch my hand

As I see the daylight fade

And twilight take its place

I wait eagerly for that hour to reach

When You will be nearest to me

So many stories to tell

So many sorrows to share

So many wishes to whisper

So many sins to repent for

I just lie there and wait for You

The One I can pour my heart out to

The stars shall witness our conversation

I will keep rambling till the break of dawn

Though You are always there to listen

This is certainly the best time for it to happen

Rising From The Ashes

Like rain drops racing down the windscreen

Staining my cheeks all wet, tears roll down.

Like a car on an erratic drive

My life takes unpredictable turns.

Like a passenger I observe the passing scenery

Events take place and I watch them without balking.

Like aeonian cicatrices and contusions

They leave their mark on my existence.

Like getting stabbed by slender needles

The piercing pains are caused by words.

Like the sun on a bright day

I go out and pretend.

Like the stars at night

Lonely in the dark attic;

Like a stone statue

I sit and contemplate.

Like a gaping, bleeding wound is covered

I suppress and hold back my fears.

Like the candle burns the moth

I hurt whoever comes close.

Like a flimsy dam barely holding up

I feel like I might fall apart.

Like a speck of ember persisting in the ash

My heart struggles to surpass the trash.

Like a warrior who doesn't give up

I try to pick myself back up.

Like no season lasts forever

My melancholy starts to disappear.

Like bearing pain allows you to gain

I standup stronger, having gone through the same.

Like a victor flaunts his prize

I wear my scars with pride.

Like a diamond shines after undergoing pressure

I get back in the saddle being firmer than ever.

Magic All Around

Barely containing my joy

I raise my head up high

A world of opportunities

Awaits my arrival

Scores of paths to choose from

Each being one of a kind

My hand struggles 

To paint a canvas

Bring forth the colors

No one has seen before

My fingers type infinitely

Resulting in intricate webs

My eyes see and observe

The mind's racing; impulses rush

Problems are endless

So is the process

Of giving births to solutions

Whether it's the sky or the ocean

The Savannahs or the deserts

My brain processes it all

Every minor detail

Is decrypted, or made into a whole

No matter where I go

It never fails to fire me up

No matter what I learn

The feeling is awesome

As I learn I connect

With my predecessors

And create and leave a legacy

For the owners of the future

Emptiness

It's like the streets are empty

Even when people are there

I can't enjoy the amazing tastes

That I once used to crave

Everything seems so insipid

Is it a farewell I need to bid?

To something that makes me cringe

But I don't even know what that is

My mind's too numb to think

The cloudy sky looks so dull

I wish the rain could wash it all

So I could find my own muse

And paint a whole new picture

Filled with bright, vibrant colors

That are invisible to me right now

Or maybe draw an amazing sketch

Make my world black and white

Whose grace would elate every soul

That witnesses my masterpiece

The streets will never be empty again

I will fill them with amazing people

Sharing my bliss with everyone

How incredibly euphoric that will feel

Everything will be making sense 

Nothing will be out anyone's reach

That Xanadu will be one to last forever

I can’t wait for the rain to come

I have to get up and take a step

Grab as many hands as I can

And run like there is no tomorrow

To the place where the rain is waiting

To turn my whole life around 

A Forlorn Desire

I feel like screaming,

All this pain is so agonizing.

There is zilch that I can do,

About the wounds scaring my soul.

My heart is impaled with a thousand knifes,

There is no stopping the downpour of my eyes.

I cannot have what I want,

And all I can do is crave it.

This longing in my heart,

Has become a forlorn desire.

My soul weeps knowing it can't happen.

For it there is neither a cure, nor a consolation.

Yet, there lies a spark in my heart.

Whose light is enough to illuminate my whole world.

It's warmth makes all the doubt fade away.

Hope and faith overcome the feelings of being awry.

Things may be impossible and beyond my expectations.

But my gracious Creator is completely above these limitations.

My Lord has the power to do all things.

He has given me countless blessings.

He can fulfill my forlorn desire too.

Be patient and pray is all I can do.

Now I have no worries, none whatsoever.

Nothing saddens me, not even my forlorn desire.

Life and Lemonade

They say when life throws lemons at you,

You ought to make lemonade.

Who makes this stuff up anyway?

When lemons are being pelted onto your head

In no world can you think about making lemonade

Besides, making lemonade is not that easy

You need to check if the lemons are juicy

Grab sugar and water and a glass to hold them

And salt to make it extra tasty

All this is just a different story

Far away from the truth of reality

Of facing all those nasty hardships

Don’t let the rules of this world hold you down

Rise and aim for the heaven; not frown

Destroy all these silly shackles

Don’t spare any obstacles

Release yourself and be free to follow your heart

Because that is where you will find the truth

Believe in it and all shall be well

Free from worries, your life will be swell

Live it to the fullest and leave no regret

The destination may be the same for everyone

But the path; you have to find your own.

Making lemonade is not the only way

Use your heart and mind; do what they say

The Lonely Girl

A girl sat on damp grass all alone at night

The Moon was glowing with all its might

Cool, scented zephyr blew petals and leaves

The only music was that of the swooshing trees

And an occasional howl from far, far away

Nothing was even the slightest bit awry

Except for that girl, who was lonely and sad

The dew had wet the attire in which she was clad

Her big, glassy eyes stared glumly at the moon

The long winter night seemed far from ending soon

Feelings of envy were sparking inside her

She thought how fortunate the moon and stars were

They knew exactly what they were supposed to do

They didn't have to figure out what was true

In this messed up world filled with illusions

Around every corner there are deceptions

Tears trickled down her cheeks as her patience gave way

She wanted to seek her Lord but knew she was far away

Her existence was shackled in frailty and hopelessness

She felt as if nothing could save her from this distress

How was she supposed to keep track of her whole life?

It wasn't a bed of roses to deal with this strife

Good and bad sound easy to choose from

But in reality web of life is spun way beyond the norm

The worst thing was that she had to do it on her own

No one else could go in her place to atone

For the sins or bear the agony of the punishments

Which she would be subjected to for her transgressions

Her forlorn desire was to achieve redemption

But she was afraid it might never happen

Life was too elaborate how could she resist?

The temptations and illusions enshrouded her like mist

Waging a war more fearsome than one can imagine

Against the desires- in her heart- that were lodged in

There was majestic light and there was awful darkness

She knew, light she had to embrace and the dark, harness

If she let the darkness win she would be lead to ruin

Giving up was, in no wise an option

She knew not what the future would be

All she could do was try and leave the rest be

Would her worries be over and her goal achieved?

That was something only her Lord cognized

You can’t lose

This is life

You have your time

There is none to waste

And yet, you can’t make haste

What you need is to get up

Grab a cup of tea to slurp

And think about your future

You don’t want to end up a loser

Setting of goals is what you need

Towards the purpose of your life, pay heed

There is more than one thing that’s important

The need to realise this is significant

Better not lose sight of what really matters

Be strong, everyone falters

You need to follow your heart

That’s one of the things beloved Prophet (p.b.u.h) taught

Obeying him, do what you love

Work hard, as peacefully as a dove

New challenges a wait

You can’t be late

Come, buckle up and get going

Give it all that you have got

You are not alone

Your Lord’s with you

He has given you people you can count on

Come, put down your cup and get up

You have got much work

Losing is not an option

This is the battle of life, which you must win

The path may be tough

But believe me you can do it!

Leaving Home

Enjoying a cup of Mom-made tea,

With my mum, on a sunny morning.

These days will never come back,

Better make the most of them,

While I still have the chance.

I have my parents by my side now,

But, soon enough it will be time,

For the little bird to finally take flight

And fly far away, leaving all behind.

It’s going to be really hard, I know,

Sadness might penetrate down to my core,

But, I will be strong, I have to vow,

As that’s the only way to achieve, what I adore.

I too need to become, the one to sow,

The seeds of victory all by myself.

The coziness of my home won't be there,

But, still I will have my parent's prayers.

They shall accompany and comfort me,

Whenever I feel down or alone.

I shall have faith in my Lord,

And never lose sight of my goals.

All will be well in the end, I believe so,

Even if not, it will take more than failures,

To make me give up or lose sight of myself.

I believe that whatever life brings me,

Is destined to help me find my way,

And lead me to success instead of awry.

When finally I will have achieved my dreams,

I will be able to look back and be thankful.

On that day I shall be glad that I had left,

The loving embrace and the safety of my home;

Abandoned my nest and dived down,

For it was only after I jumped out of it,

That I was able to spread my wings so wide,

And soar in to the blue sky with all my might.

Sacrifices

At times you have to be selfless, for others

But deep down you know sometimes it bothers

Can't help it you have to do the right thing

Don't know, still, how to deal with the pain it can bring

Even though you want things to be the other way around                               

For your loved ones you have to kill your own desire

God knows, the heart has to be vast as the sky that’s sapphire

Hard it is to not grab it when what you want is right in front

It takes much courage and patience to just quietly grunt

Just then you wonder whether you really want to forsake it

Kudos shall be earned but the thing is that, is it really worth it?

Letting your heart be torn just for the sake of someone else

Maybe it’s that you feel you are not strong enough

Noble it is indeed to make a make a selfless decision

Opting to do it however can become worse than a prison

Possibility is that later you will regret doing so

Quandary will cause you to mop and mow 

Restless your soul shall become causing agony

Sometimes the pain can even become uncanny

Thus you will then wish you could bring back the past

Undo the mistake, you feel could otherwise be your last

Very fatal now the sacrifice seems

Wrong you were in the beginning it means

Xanadu of Paradise though you will get in the afterlife

You will be rewarded then for making the sacrifice

Zilch will be your suffering there, had your intentions been fair here

Do not Despair

Life is so bright

Everything's just alright

It seems nothing can go wrong

But soon God proves you wrong

That is life my friend

God is your one, true friend

There are always points in your life

When darkness is stabbing you like a knife

You know you are all alone                   

And that’s where you need to atone

Just tell yourself you are a moron

Because God is with you, you stupid human

Wen no loved one can reach you

No matter how much they want to

Your Lord is there for you

To save you from your agony

The Great Lord can do what He wants

Whatever He wills for His beings, He grants

All you need is to ask

It may seem a difficult task

But trust me it’s worth the shot

For your Lord loves you a lot

Just have faith and hold His hand

Then there won’t be any problem that you can’t withstand

Patience though you will need

After all there’s a price if you want to succeed

It isn’t even near as high as you think

If you choose the glitter, your life will stink

Just don’t lose hope and don’t despair

For your Lord’s always there

Just call out to Him and He shall help you

All of your problems He shall hew

Dreams and Disappointments

All humans dream and aim high

Babies and grownups all alike

Careful though they need to be

Dreams cannot all be fulfilled

Even of those who are self-willed

For ultimately humans have limitations

God too has his own plans

However, the fact cannot be denied

It hurts a lot when dreams are annihilated

Jape of life is what it seems

Keek of reality beyond the dreams

Lost and hopeless is what you feel

Mourning looks like your only deal

Not to mention the criticism

Or the hearts you know you have broken

Parents and loved ones feel sorry for you

Quietly try to console you

Ruptured is your heart, however, too badly

Sadness enshrouds, you get so lonely

Tasks of life seem so irking

Up, however, you need to rise

Verily regret will benefit you in no wise

Well, life is never without disappointments

X-dreams thus need to be left behind

You just need to have faith in God

Zilch will then be your suffering over a lost cause

Pleas wrapped in confession

You can never count the bounties of Your Lord

For He is the greatest of all

And can give you all you want

Even that which you have never asked

In spite of our countless sins

He is always merciful to us

Never forsakes us

Doesn’t hate us

Though we are such ungrateful beings

O Lord we love you

O Lord we beg you

To guide us to the straight path

Make us thankful

Forgive all of our sins

And never be angry with us

For if You will to leave us

Without doubt you don’t need us

We will be doomed to hell

Which is the worst abode of all

O Allah we thank You so much

And are very grateful to You

We love You with all we can

So please listen to our plea

Verily You alone are the best of listeners

Gratitude

The blessings of my Lord are countless

Yet in thanking Him I become so listless

Such a sinful being I am

Feel like a complete sham

What is there that my Lord hasn't given me?

Even the things He withheld from me

He kept them away because He loves me

He is the Great Lord who knows what’s best for me

My lord, I thank You

I thank You with all my heart

My soul is Yours

It bows before You

Because that’s its duty

That’s what You ordered it to do

My lord forgive my sins

Please O Lord love me

I know You do

But I am afraid too

I am such a damn fool

Full of pride, in spite of my utter frailness

My Lord I love You with all I can

And I beseech You to love me

And those whose love You have blessed me with

You have in Your power all

And need the help of no one

Your blessings are countless

You are without doubt the most merciful of all

None of the goods I have are my own earning

You are the one who has blessed me with them

For I have no power over any thing

I take You and You alone as the disposer of my affairs

And I know You will never let me down

As long as I hold tight Your rope

My Lord keep blessing me

And make me of Your grateful, pious beings

Who are as free from pomp and pride

As a pure, new born child